Entwined Destiny

2012-02-17T01:01:00.002+08:00

Harap-harap dewan masa pertandingan tu, fully air-conditioned.

Okay. *continue writing hujahs on cue cards*

2012-02-09T20:43:00.003+08:00

When I was a kid, I used to think that Peter Pan actually exists. Not much of the word 'exist', but, y'know.. like.. I used to think that human can fly, mermaids exists, rainbows has some sort of... magic?

Then I learnt that Peter Pan is just a character. & it's a cartoon. Cartoon aren't real. (except for some of them) I mean, it's impossible that kids by the age of 5 can fly a rocket across the ...world? (guna rocket pulak tu!) That is why, it is called, 'cartoon' :P

& here it is,

one of my favourite cartoon character!,

Snoopy!

Also, went to Danielle's house on the last day of Chinese New Year (last Sunday, I supposed). Had pizza! Played Nintendo Wii! Dah lama tak main... the last time I did was in 2009 o.O

Anyways, Dann's mother gave each of us an ang pow! Thank you Aunty! :D Another ang pow! Hehe.

Well this week's koko was fine. Jaga checkpoint for Pencinta Alam. Tarik tali. Badminton.

.......................dah lupa nak tulis apa sebab dah tiga hari post ni terbiar dekat dalam Draft.

Jet Lag

2012-02-07T00:00:00.002+08:00

According to the Lunar calendar, I am seventeen, turning eighteen.

Wow.

Happy 7th February! (:

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2012-02-06T21:37:00.001+08:00

The rest are yet to be discovered.

Dotted Lines & Directions.

2012-02-05T02:50:00.003+08:00

Hello!

It's February, 5th 2012; 2:51AM & I can't access my YM. Was chatting with a friend from UK just now.. & logged out an hour ago cause I had to sleep. But I didn't.

My sister is still talking to someone, on the phone.

Ah. Maybe I should just, go to sleep since I'll be going out with ze cousins tomorrow morning.

I'm hungry.

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2012-02-02T23:46:00.002+08:00

47/1231

2012-02-02T23:44:00.001+08:00

Lampu neon.

46/1231

2012-02-02T23:37:00.003+08:00

The bow!

45/1231

2012-02-02T23:30:00.003+08:00

Across the deep, blue, ocean, under the open sky.

I'm trying.

44/1231

2012-02-02T23:25:00.002+08:00

"Where to?"

"Idk, you decide lah"

43/1231

2012-02-02T23:22:00.002+08:00

The jetty.

or whateber you call it.

42/1231

2012-02-02T23:18:00.002+08:00

A lifelong learner.

I'll keep that in mind.

41/1231

2012-02-02T23:16:00.001+08:00

Hang Li Po.

40/1231

2012-02-02T23:14:00.002+08:00

Tana Toraja

39/1231

2012-02-02T23:11:00.003+08:00

1511.

38/1231

2012-02-02T23:06:00.003+08:00

Hello C&K!

37/1231

2012-02-02T23:03:00.002+08:00

Masa saya 2 tahun, Mak saya bagi baby crackers je tahu tak.

36/1231

2012-02-02T22:57:00.005+08:00

Anyone has a machine that could transform this thingy?

If possible -a music box please?

35/1231

2012-02-02T22:51:00.003+08:00

Reflection.

*too much of Mod. Maths AHHH*

HI303!

2012-02-02T21:38:00.007+08:00

Mi Chemical Reaction!

Ina, stirring the mixture.

The first one turned out, bad. Not really lah, tapi bila tanya, majority kata busuk ._. I think it was because of the flower. Hahaha. The second one was better, I guess :P

Ah, flower gone wrong.

She gave me these! Hehe thank you!! (:

The cineplex.

The library. By far the nicest mini library I've ever seen.

Spilled water-diluted Hcl on my jadual & look what happen! Can't imagine what happen if the whole un-diluted HCl spills on my hand. D:

Trip to JB was fine. Only that most of my cousins & nieces got diaarhea on the second day. Virus apa entah. Apart from that, it was... perfect :D

Ironing baju for Malam Nikah in the walk-in wardrobe. Heh.

Breakfast alone @ The Terrace.

The food was NICE! Seriously!

Second day's Lunch @ the kenduri.

Funfair @ Danga Bay.

Expensive. Nothing much pun -compared to Shah Alam's.

Boring.

Benda ni memang !@#$%^ Played it before kat i-city. Memang tak kan dapat la the 3-foot teddy bear.

The kenduri on the second day.

Kids in baju melayu Johor. And the thing on their songkok! ;D

Haney, Maira.

Look at Maira! Aww :'D

Maira turns 2 this month!

The Tip of Asia.

There's a reason why her picture is nicer than mine >:(

...cause she took this photo! :(

Spot me.

The Muzium.

That's the door.

2012-01-22T02:18:00.004+08:00

...and so, this <-- wasn't my last post before SPM.

Obviously.

Well anyways, I'm on my long-CNY break. Seminggu je. Tapi 'seminggu' tu sebenarnya lama. Lama sangat. Ah. Homeworks pun banyak. I've no idea how & where to start.

Sivik, a 'Tokoh Tempatan' & your opinions about him/her that you consider as 'tokoh'. Haha. Now what? D:
Karangan - 'Budaya Rumah Terbuka' <---- I think so. Dah lupa. Tapi ada something got to do with budaya rumah terbuka la. Or was it ziarah-menziarahi. Anyways, it's a 'Karangan Respons Terbuka', lagilah tak tahu nak tulis apa.
M.Maths? Haha.

& guess what?! I'll be going to JB on January 27th... till January 29th! & I was planning to bring all my work to JB... but on a second thought, Pulai Springs is such a nice place. I think I should just, complete all my work before January 27th then.

Put aside the homeworks & whatnot.
I got...

a keychain!

God knows when was the last time I got a keychain from someone. Speaking of that, somebody still owes me a birthday present *youknowwhoyouare* Anyways, thank you!

...a new meja!!!

Entah kenapa dalam gambar nampak tak cantik D:

Took this picture lepas semua orang balik. :P

...gambar baru dalam album hijau.

12bucks for 15 4R is quite expensive though. But then again, I don't have to go all the way to OU en.

...a new book! MYR17.50. ;D

One more thing,

I managed to complete 16 listnames in 2hours! Thats considered, quite.. fast already kaaaan?^^

& even completed my maths homeworks! Yeaaaay!!!

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2012-01-16T00:27:00.005+08:00

Debate. Homeworks. Ko-ko. Tuition. Prefects. Modern Mathematics. Er.

14th day tomorrow. Doing good, so far.

Abah got home one day, with a box of Secret R's Marble Cheese written

... 'To... ALL LOVELY GIRLS'

1231 is us

2011-12-31T01:25:00.006+08:00

I bought a planner from Daiso. Was flipping it to check the dates & all.. only to learn that the public holidays are marked according to Japan's. No Hari Raya. No 1st Ramadhan. No Aug 31st. None. Haha. What do you expect, Nur Hayatie? It's produk Jepun. (Nak jimat duit tapi tersalah beli.)
I think I've mentioned a few times that I despise 3 things.

1. Interviews.

2. Insufficient something to achieve something.

3. Choices.

-I don't think so I've ever mentioned this to anyone. But, I despise interviews. I mean, it sucks. A lot. I won't remember anything that has been my 'mantra' for ..since they told me I'd be interviewed on yadayadayadate blablatime blablablawhere. I remember being interviewed for the first time in this school. It was something gotta do with prefects I think. Yeah. The seniors, well they make me feel as if I'm so, dumb. (Hahaha, normal intimidated-feeling juniors will always have to go through) The teachers, ... I'll just keep it to myself.

-The 'something'(s) was meant to be filled in with; eg :

Insufficient time.

Insufficient stuffs.

Insufficient time.

Ya Allah... Another 22 hours left before 2012!

-Seemingly, theres three plans this time, for NYE. I thought of just, staying at home. But thats just pathetic. So, i-City, Padang Saga with them or Klang?

Berbelah bahagi. Blergh.

I don't know what's going to happen after this. I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow & for the next 11 months. I don't know. I'm not a psychic. I can't predict stuff. Though, my prediction for some football match's score was right. But that doesn't make me a psychic (& that was 18 months ago, during the Fifa World Cup). Or maybe I used to have this 'power... ah nevermind. Anyways... so, I don't even know whether this'd be my last post before SPM or not. I don't know. Maybe yes. Maybe no. I don't know. But for the sake of _______ , I'll make sure it will happen. Insyaallah, I hope that everything will be just fine. Habiskan segala benda dekat sekolah. Habiskan semua exams. Ambil SPM. Then without realising, 12 bulan berlalu macam itu sahaja.

Happy 31st December!

Happy New Year!

11 bulan sahaja. Tunggu saya.

'satu hari' sudah tiba.

2011-12-29T01:07:00.005+08:00

Bad news.

Izzah Atirah start sekolah next year ):

...which means I only get to see her (if I'm lucky) once a week. (If I'm not,) once a month.

Ahhhhhhhhh.

Why.

2011-12-28T01:56:00.003+08:00

Rupanya, memang orang akan pandang rendah dekat kita kalau kita tak bersopan, tak pakai baju yang sopan, tak cakap benda yang sopan. Okay, itu memang patut. Tapi yang paling penting, ada yang hanya pandang serong dekat kita kalau kita ni dari level yang lain.

Dah berapa kali dah aku sebut pasal benda ni dekat blog ni. Cuma, ada yang aku sampaikan indirectly je. Pelik. Sedih. Entahlah, aku pun tak tahu nak rasa apa. Rasa kena khianat? Ada. Rasa kena tipu? Ada. Rasa diperbodohkan? Itu pun ada.

Aku pelik, aku tak jumpa diorang baru dua minggu lebih. Tapi sekarang, macam aku dah tak kenal diorang. Padahal, dah empat tahun kitaorang kenal.

Tahun depan, dah SPM. Final exam as a high school student. To be exact, budak sekolah. Bagi aku, aku tak nak habiskan SPM. Sebab kalau habis SPM, maknanya aku dah officially berhenti sekolah. (Needless to say, I'll miss being a school kid, forever will & I don't want that to happen.)

One day (...perhaps in 10 years time) if they ever going to have a reunion, I'm not surprised if I'm not invited. I'm pretty much invisible, yknw.

Saya pun tak faham.

33/1231

2011-12-27T01:50:00.008+08:00

'... Hahah, I know right! I rasa kan, you dah lama sangat dengan dia & it seems like ...cara you cakap, cara you tulis, serious serupa macam dia & ....' - 18 Julai 2011.

In high-definition, I dreamt of you. Amazing.

Killed Softly

2011-12-22T23:25:00.004+08:00

When you fancy someone that much, that hard, that long... it is literally impossible for you to just let go of everything in one second.

Give 'em people some time, please.

-One of 'em.

What

2011-12-14T01:09:00.003+08:00

Bonda kata,

kadang kala kita jangan fikir terlalu jauh, boleh bikin otak jadi abnormal.

Semenjak dua menjak ni, banyak betul benda hendak diselesaikan. Kalau tak silap, dah masuk bulan ke-14 saya mengadu pada bonda, Saya penat. Saya sakit hati. Saya sedih. Semuanya beliau balas dengan benda yang sama. Bukannya jawapan. Tetapi soalan. Saya hairan. Kenapa beliau tak membalas, tetapi menanya. Benda yang sama orang lain kata. Benda yang sama saya cakap kepada diri sendiri.

Kenapa.

Bezanya, orang lain punya, berbentuk soalan. Saya punya, pernyataan.

Saya benci jawab soalan. Sebab saya dah ada banyak sangat soalan yang tak terjawab dalam otak. Tak sanggup nak terima lagi satu soalan. Muak.

Pernyataan bonda, buat saya senyum.

Inns Street.

2011-12-10T01:46:00.002+08:00

I own a ranch somewhere at Mineral Town.

I own a toy shop & makes 50 000 profits per month.

I own a restaurant & the customers are my friends. (God knows how... err haha.)

& above all, I killed a dragon, once, twice, err, more than 10 times.

Kalaulah semua tu betul.

...nak baju macam Mocha & Macchiato boleh?

Happy *belated* Birthday Mocha!

32/1231

2011-12-09T00:12:00.000+08:00

Choc fondue.

Sweet.

Paaapikkk!

2011-12-06T00:25:00.003+08:00

Hmph, where should I start?

Guru tuisyen subjek Bahasa Melayu saya, dia tahu cakap bahasa Tamil. Hahah.
Haney masih kenal saya! (FYI, the last time we met was 8 months ago & she's just 3Y/O!) Heheh.
Saya terjumpa MYR55 dalam bus. Otw pergi tuisyen few days ago. Entahlah nak rasa bersalah ke, gembira. Heh.
Esok saya pergi ice-skating for the very first time! Hihih.
Saya belum habis baca Sejarah lagi. Saya rasa macam tak sempat nak habiskan sampai Bab 10//sebelum 20th Dec.
Saya belum habis baca Last Chance Saloon lagi. Saya beli buku tu 6 months ago. Haih.
Saya tuisyen every Sat, Sun, Mon & Wed. Setiap kali pergi naik bus. Sekarang ni, saya benci bus U8 yang lalu setiap 10minit walhal U86 kena tunggu 45 minit! Tak boleh ke bagi satu bus kat U86. Hairan.
Saya dah ada handphone baru. Saya guna number baru. Yang number _____92 tu, kak Ira punya number.
Followers yang semakin lama semakin bertambah membuatkan saya tak ada hati nak sambung guna Twtter. Saya rasa timeline saya, menambahkan dosa. Cursing memanjang. (No offense, followers. Betulkan apa saya cakap ni) Haha.
Saya tengah buat flyer. Untuk Prefectorial Board. Tapi saya sebenarnya tak tahu macam mana & apa hendak ditulis. Ye lah, flyer ni akan dibaca oleh semua orang kat BSD(ii) including all the cikgus. So, kenalah buat dengan bahasa yang formal sikit. Masalahnya, nak berblogging pun berjam-jam. Let alone, surats, flyers, notice, & whatnot. Tiba-tiba pulak, dari nak buat benda ni kat Mic Word, boleh pulak ter-switch on modem. Boleh pulak ter-minimize Mic Word. Boleh pulak ter-tekan G. Chrome. Boleh pulak tersangkut kat dunia kedua berjam-jam. Dah kata dah, saya tak pandai ber-setiausaha-setiausaha ni, tapi insist nak orang buat. Macam ni lah jadinya. Ni lah kerja Setiausaha. Okay. Haaaaaaaaa.
Sejak saya start tuisyen kat Kasturi balik sejak Sabtu lepas, saya realise, saya jarang online. Ye lah, everytime pergi, double lesson. By that, I mean, kalau one lesson is 1hr 10mins, two lessons is 2hours 20mins excluding 10mins break between two lessons & then we'd have another 30mins break before another double lessons for different subjects. So, kira-kira, 6 jam jugak lah saya ada kat Kasturi tu. Dah lah kelas dia sejuk membeku. And then lepas habis kelas, kena tunggu U86 yang kadang-kadang tunggu 2jam pun tak sampai-sampai! Kepada sesiapa yang pergibalik naik kereta, bersyukurlah cause you don't have to wait for the bus (esp. U86) to come. & one more thing, kalau class start pukul 9, kau tak payah bangun pukul 7.45. Bangun pukul 8.30 pun sempat lagi. So, puhlease stop complaining. Kepada sesiapa yang rasa apa yang saya sedang lalui (am talking about the long-wait, the ever-annoying foreigners & people who smokes here -entahlah diorang ni, asap kereta tu tak cukup agaknya), I feel you.
Guru tuisyen Add Maths saya kata, saya dah tinggi. HAHAHAHA. No really. I actually got taller by 5cm in 4 months. Heeeeeeee.
Can you do me a favour? Doakan bus dari Ikano tak depart awal dari masa yang ditetapkan. & doakan saya sempat sampai sana sebelum bus tu bergerak jugak! Heheh. Insyaallah, tak kot.

If she/he can leave someone else for you, he/she can leave you for someone else too.

-NHZ/1:10AM/Dec 6th.

Happy 6th December!

"Your hancur, hancur"

2011-11-27T22:41:00.002+08:00

I remember watching this short film long time ago. Back in '09, I supposed.

Watch it! (:

Komplikasi Dunia

2011-11-26T23:07:00.008+08:00

Di salah satu reunion dinner bersama ahli keluarga :

Kanak-kanak 1 : Kak Nono, kenapakan... (kanak-kanak 2) kata, jangan kawan Kak Nono?

Saya pun terpinga-pinga memikirkan sejak bila saya sakitkan hati (Kanak-kanak 2)?

Fikir punya fikir, baru saya ingat semula! 2 bulan lepas, dia nak tengok cerita apa entah, Lepas tu saya buat tak tau je, tukar rancangan lain sebab cerita yang dia nak tengok tu memang mengarut pun. Nanti saya tukar channel tu, saya kena jawab dengan orang tua dia kenapa bagi anak dia tengok cerita macam tu.

Jadi, saya pun jawablah soalan Kanak-kanak 1 tu tadi dengan ringkas;

H : Oh eh? Entahlah, kalau dia tak nak kawan orang, suka hati dia lah.

Kanak-kanak 1 berlari ke arah Kanak-kanak 2 meninggalkan saya yang tengah duduk dekat depan fountain, tengok monyet depan rumah (ye, kat depan rumah tu memang ada monyet & baru-baru ni monyet tu masuk rumah, curi jemput-jemput yang makcik saya buat. I'm serious.)

Thing is, bila kanak-kanak 1 lari pergi kat kanak-kanak 2, kanak-kanak 2 tu jeling kat saya. Hah. Kuajaq. Tak apa. Nasib baik dia kecil lagi.

"Tak nak kawan!" Sebenarnya saya memang tak suka orang cakap macam tu dari dulu lagi. Menyampah. Tak masuk akal ayat tu. Tapi nasib baik dia budak. Dalam hati, saya fikir : ugh, childish sangat.

Masa dalam perjalanan balik rumah tu, baru saya sedar... memang lah dia childish, dia masih budak lagi!

What I'm trying to say is that, they are kids. They'll grow up someday. Give them some time. Eventually, they'll get how everything works. Janganlah semua nak marah je. Bukan budak saja, as a teenager... I don't like it when my mother complains too much (& sometime even compares us to those girls kat blok belakang yang pandai masak) ugh. Kadang-kadang rasa nak bagitau diorang yang tak ada orang yang pandai dalam semua aspek. Kayh, dia pandai masak. Tapi mungkin dia ada kurang dalam aspek lain. Not saying that I'm better than them. For me, orang yang pandai masak (at my age) dah dikira lagi pandai dari saya dah.

Back to kanak-kanak punya cerita;

Saya tak kisah kalau kanak-kanak yang buat macam tu. Tapi masalahnya, ada yang umur 16 tahun pun masih lagi macam tu. Tak nak kawan ni, tak nak kawan tu. Masih berpegang kepada peribahasa pipit sama pipit, enggang sama enggang.

Absurd.

1433H is probably (going to be) one of the most toughest year in my life. With SPM & all.

Don't even talk about Prefects stuff. Blergh.

Salam Maal Hijrah everyone!

In the name of Allah, I begin my year with perseverance. May I have faith & strength for good health & wisdom. Amin.

Have you ever...

2011-11-24T08:50:00.003+08:00

1) -after a period of liking someone, then queried yourself why & how in the world did you manage to fall for her/him real hard?

2) felt too much pain /eg: heartache. / that you can't even utter a word?

3) loved someone too much, only to fear of them leaving you?

4) felt so scared you'd mess up your final exam, you started studying two months earlier only to find yourself getting Cs & Ds?

5) felt like telling/sharing your problems but it's just impossible to trust anyone after your own friend betrayed you?

6) felt like the absence of someone /referring to someone who had betrayed you before/ would make you a better person, in a better situation, living a happier life?

7) getting advice from someone, only to find yourself following it after ignoring it?

8) realise that you made a right choice so much that you can never regret doing so?

9) drawing tears silently when talking to someone on the phone cause you don't want that particular special someone to know that you're crying, it hurts so much that you can't even breathe cause it is not only the nose block, it's your brain trying to sort things out & at the same time, dealing with the heartache?

If you've felt all that I've stated above, you're not alone.

7

2011-11-19T01:04:00.001+08:00

Please, don't even appear in my dream anymore.

Smokey

2011-11-18T23:03:00.004+08:00

So, my last day of school this year seems so.. dull? Well to be frank, I don't really care about this year's last day of school as much as I did last year (or last last year). Dah la tu, Meranti tak buat pun class party. Haha. Selama 10 tahun sekolah tak pernah setahun pun tak pernah buat -__-

But anyways, I had fun with them. Although February baru masuk Meranti, but yeah. I might not be able to stay in Meranti dah next year. Sooooo, entah. We'll see.

MYR100 ...

...with my name printed on the envelope!

U ada? ha-ha.

lame.

Break for 43 days starting from today. I won't -WON'T touch the books.

jk.

31/1231

2011-11-17T01:29:00.005+08:00

The winner takes it all.

It was never unfair.

Berbeza

2011-10-29T19:21:00.002+08:00

Kalau lah tempat ni tak pernah wujud.
Kalau lah aku dekat tempat yang sama.
Kalau lah kau ada kat sini.
Kalau lah tempat tu tak pernah wujud.
Kalau lah 081010 tak pernah wujud.
...

Semua benda tak akan tukar.

Eight years. EIGHT-LONG-YEARS left. :)

30/1231

2011-10-26T23:51:00.003+08:00

Amik gambar sendiri.

How.. sad.

29/1231

2011-10-26T23:45:00.004+08:00

Blue. Your favourite colour.

28/1231

2011-10-26T23:41:00.003+08:00

Roti telur

27/1231

2011-10-26T23:37:00.003+08:00

26/1231

2011-10-26T23:34:00.001+08:00

This picture deserves to be in my PR1231.

25/1231

2011-10-26T23:28:00.003+08:00

So little time.

Yes, I'm no longer a Swatcher (a person who uses Swatch)

24/1231

2011-10-26T23:22:00.003+08:00

One-six.

23/1231

2011-10-26T23:19:00.000+08:00

22/1231

2011-10-26T23:14:00.002+08:00

How many years ah?

Oh, 4 years.

21/1231

2011-10-26T23:07:00.003+08:00

Msia is beautiful, nuff said.

20/1231

2011-10-26T23:00:00.003+08:00

If the bird were to land on my hand, I won't let it go.

The same thing I'd do, to you.

19/1231

2011-10-26T22:55:00.004+08:00

18 steps to the top. I swear.

18/1231

2011-10-26T22:47:00.002+08:00

Lola/Zuhayra

17/1231

2011-10-26T22:25:00.002+08:00

I love my black & white kebaya.

16/1231

2011-10-26T22:22:00.003+08:00

I love this place.

Don't ask me why.

15/1231

2011-10-26T22:14:00.002+08:00

I miss her.

14/1231

2011-10-26T22:05:00.001+08:00

Amy, Nana & Syasya

13/1231

2011-10-26T21:59:00.003+08:00

Nampak tinggi. I swear.

12/1231

2011-10-26T21:52:00.003+08:00

Masak, jahit baju, kemas rumah, basuh baju, kemas rumah, masak, kemas bilik saya, masak again. That's my momma. & I love her.

11/1231

2011-10-26T21:46:00.001+08:00

Red.

Continuation

2011-10-23T23:45:00.001+08:00

Adik mithali.

Helping kak ira w her ID project. Hehe. ahaha. hihih hoh. ha.

10/1231

2011-10-22T22:22:00.003+08:00

Belanja-ed myself.

Hahaha haha hah ha ha ah.

Sweet Gestures

2011-10-22T21:04:00.003+08:00

Early-surprise-party. Early-birthday-celebration. Early-birthday-gifts. Early-birthday-wishes.

Life's good.

Lumrah hidup.

2011-10-19T00:07:00.002+08:00

Di perpustakaan sekolah petang tadi;

*buat Add Maths*
...
...
until one part when I (finally) reached Logarithms;
*ketuk-ketuk kepala dengan buku sebab tak dapat solve the question*
*A stares at me weirdly*

H : Sorry, I just... I don't know how to solve this question. Haha *gelak pathetically*
A : Its okay, I dah jumpa ramai orang yang ketuk-ketuk kepala bila buat Add Maths.

8 HOURS OF ADDMATHS. DAPAT 20% JE.

A question

2011-10-17T22:48:00.005+08:00

The files. The metal bird. The neverending arguments. The thoughts. The books. The books as thick as an Oxfrd dictionary. The chapters. The equations. The humans. The tips. The ever-so-cannot-be-rely-on-exam-tips. The responsibility -as a Muslim. The never-change 'no last minute studying'. The humans. The people around me. The environment. The air. The feelings. The syaitans. The toughest subject. The last day of a test. The break. The holidays. The last 5 papers. The last day. The feelings. The outings. The foods. The time. The hour-of-sleep. Poor brain.

An hour of Sejarah feels like as if my brain cells are all damaged.
An hour of Agama makes me feel so... incomplete.
An hour of Biology makes me feel like the existence of cells in humans & animals are so leceh & brings a lot of disadvantages. -from a student's perspective of view.
An hour of Physics can (literally) make my head pening. Like seriously. Forces, convex & concave... the inertia(s) <---- still okay w it. But still, why do cars even ~!@#$%^&* exist?
An hour of Add Maths makes me feel like I'm worst than a kura-kura. Even the kura-kura can do the EQN better than me.

The question is, why am I forcing myself to study when I actually HAVE to study?
-because I have to study but I am not doing it that is why I have to force myself to study.
Can't possibly wait for cuti satu minggu. I need to re-charge/re-store energy untuk Chemistry. Sebelum itu, saya ada lagi 8 paper sebelum cuti. Lapan. Tinggal lapan sahaja. 4 hari of exam that feels like 1231249138914913408492 tahun.

Agama Kertas 1 starts in less than 11hours. Can you readers do me a favour? Doa for me. I just need you to doa for me. Thats all. Thanks!

Iris

2011-10-10T00:34:00.002+08:00

Should consider bringing a box-of-six pensel kayu with me everyday to school for the next 22days. Just incase my one & only mechanical pencil went missing. And oh, a sharpener too.

Bila final exam je mesti tak sah kalau sehari tak tinggal benda. And that makes me feel like bringing everything to school. Even chocolate waffle sebab masa study selalu makan tu. So, bila makan something teringat balik semua benda yang dah study. Haha. Mengarut. I know. I'm just, well I think I studied Sejarah too much... Enough said.

I got PJPK & Sivik Kewarganegaraan tomorrow morning. The exam starts at 11. So I was thinking maybe I should stay at the library before the exam starts. But on a second thought, I can't. Kedatangan T_T

Today marks the first day of my 4th year in high school's final exam! And everyone else's too, duhh. Best of luck, to all of you yang ada any paper (even if it's Sivik/PJPK) tomorrow.

Happy October 10th 2011!

I just received a text message. Teka siapa. Haaaaaa. Bye.

MSN

2011-10-08T02:37:00.003+08:00

7th October 2010 was probably the most stressing day ever.

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Jauhnya

2011-10-02T02:41:00.009+08:00

Funny how time really, actually (flies).

A month ago I was in Seremban, and now.. I'm here. Two months ago, I was busy preparing for August Test, but now, I hardly study for Finals which is in approximately (192hours). My Raya was spent with ...err, I don't know. Cepat sangat dah habis Raya. I feel like I just, wasted 30 DAYS. 30-long-precious-days. Should've use that for revising & alls. Well, I'm quite sure my October this year will be better than Sept. I hope.

I stopped cursing long time ago. Can't remember what exactly made me stop cursing. But I guess cause there's once where.. well, I cursed, then a friend of mine said 'Wah, H betul-betul marah ni!' Tapi sebenarnya tak ada lah marah sangat. Cuma dah macam... tercakap. Or should I say, terbiasa lepas cakap. Haha. So, after he said that, it hits me that cursing ain't cool (never thought it is cool pun, entah kenapa tiba-tiba tertype 'cool') and doesn't make any difference to anything bad that happened. Since then, (I think it was April 2010) I decided to stop cursing and say bad words such as the F word, s**l, b*****g/*e****g, any bad words in different languages.

Honestly, my parents forbids me from saying such words as bodoh, idiot, moron, monkey to my sister or anyone eversince I was small. Aha, and I learned those words from my friends at school. God knows how did I know what is 'bodoh', but I can still remember someone who taught me/accidently taught me the meaning of the F word. I won't forget you, forever seriously. (I have my reasons for doing so) Anyways, I hardly use bodoh now. Really. (except for annoying kids). I hardly curse pun dulu. (except when I'm with some people that I dislike and that someone that I dislike does something that I don't like, yeah.) So, for those people out there, who curses every minute, I advise you to just shut up if you don't have anything nice to say.

Just incase, if you're wondering why do I hardly tweet nowadays, it's because people on Twitter (or at least people that I follow) offently curse. Especially during Ramadhan. One second they posted something about kemuliaan Ramadhn, then few minutes later they tweeted with F word and S word and B word all in one tweet. And I was like ..........................ohk.

Just realised that its 4:11 already! Gotta wake up really early for Sejarah tomorrow.

Goodnight! Happy October 1st!

Oh, I just cut my hair. My sister said I look like ____.

I should just keep it to myself. haha

Across my memory

2011-09-30T20:57:00.004+08:00

Its hard to believe that I'm leaving high school next year! I mean, not just high school. It's school. What should I do after SPM? Sure hell I'm going to University/College. But that if (and only if) my SPM result is above average. Or atleast tak ada G. But what if I got G for any of the subjects? (especially Physics & Chemistry)

Put aside the subjects. I'd surely miss being a prefect. Not the part where we have to handle the assembly every Monday. I'm talking about the prefects. Yeah, I have to admit that some of them are really annoying. & some of them skip their duties. But most of them aren't that bad.

To be frank, I myself, though I am the 'setiausaha', I don't really do that much of paperwork. Sebenarnya meeting pun jarang ada. So, minit mesyuarat pun.. tak adalah banyak sangat. Anyways, I was surprised when I got to know from one of my friend that I'd be the next 'setiausaha' for the Prefectorial Board. I (being me) mestilah tak nak pegang any post -especially Setiausaha!, because ada banyak kerja. But cikgu insist on taking me as the 'setiausaha' yang tak banyak buat kerja. So I agreed; for the sake of the 7 marks.

I spent 2 hours studying Sejarah + doing Modern Maths at the library. Yes. Our school's library. And yes, after school. Call me lame or whut. But I know I won't be able to study at home, alone that is why I went to the library after school. Planning to do it everyday until next week's Friday. Care to join? Come lah to the library after school! I'll be there for at least one and a half hour. :D

I am considering Seni for SPM. Though Tasawwur seems easier and since I cannot take Geografi. How I wish I'm in some school where all the subjects are available.

Its hard to concentrate in class nowadays. Padah tidur lambat. Pagi esok tu mengantuk. Haih. Been day-dreaming a lot lately. Even talked to myself in the class during Chemistry earlier today. Cikgu wasn't around. So.. hari ni belajar Modern Math JE.

Library. Homeworks. BSMM. Prefectorial Board. Experiments. Preparing for sports day. Sports Day. Bulan Kemerdekaan. Minggu this & that. Ko-ko. yadayadayada. . . God, my zaman persekolahan is coming to an end DDDD':

9/1231

2011-09-27T00:45:00.002+08:00

Wednesday marks the end of Syawal for this year.

Can't possibly wait for next next year's (2013) Raya :)

Time to Kill, : none.

2011-09-20T23:22:00.007+08:00

A. Shauki was right. Selagi orang tu tak mati, selagi tu lah orang tak nak appreciate. As I said earlier at one of of the caption of my picture on Flickr, I learnt a lot this year. I'm back in Meranti after 3 years, learnt that Physics is not as fun as I thought it was. Put aside the exams/school stuffs, I'm loving my life. Enough said.

I've been busy studying for finals these past few DAYS. Alhamdulillah, finally started revising for FE which is 20 days ahead. I don't think so I'd get more than 2As. But then again, I'll try my best to maintain my 5As D: ...and ofcourse, lulus Physics and Additional Maths. God knows how much I despise Physics & Add Math.

Speaking of Add maths, I haven't complete Formative Ex 9.4, 9.5, 9.6 + Chapter Review. A total of more than 15 questions. Damn. Dah lah esok kena hantar! And its 11.39 already. Thing is, I don't really know how to do it. I mean, salah diri sendiri jugaklah kan. Delay homework & now I got them all mixed up.

God damn.. its 12.20! Ahhh, gonna complete my add maths now then tidur.

Btw, I'll be getting a new Swatch from Abah later in Dec. I asked for a necklace, he didn't say anything. ...... ):

8/1231

2011-09-12T20:54:00.004+08:00

Flowers on your baju so cute lah.

7/1231

2011-09-03T00:40:00.005+08:00

Hujan emas di negara orang,

Hujan batu di negara sendiri,

Lebih baik negeri sendiri.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z8Wl3firJQk

Gambar ni bermakna, tengok betul-betul.

U17 Msia & Eton

2011-09-02T23:49:00.003+08:00

Haaa, my mata so sepet compared to both of them's D:

Selamat Hari Kebangsaan ke 54 Malaysia!

I'm a proud Malaysian. hehehe :D

Probability i

2011-08-19T16:22:00.004+08:00

Might get G for Physics. Might not get above 40 for Add Maths. Might not be able to get A- for BM again. But hey, Aug test is over. As for now, I just want to... rest. I'll start studying for Finals a week(or two) after raya. Serik dah tidur pukul 2.30pagi hari-hari.

Selamat Hari Raya!

Feeling,

2011-08-18T01:29:00.000+08:00

lethargic

6/1231

2011-08-17T01:15:00.003+08:00

Cannot wait for Raya. Nahh, not because of duit raya. Just that, yaknow, I was busy preparing for PMR last year that I didn't even get to help ma & all.

So, Friday please cepat sikit. Not that I hate exams, but I just don't feel like doing it anymore.

It's been a year since PMR 2010's trial. A year.

5/1231

2011-08-13T01:56:00.003+08:00

Dad just bought a new battery for our A610.

Hehe tunggu la eh, nanti tak lama lagi complete la project 1231 tu.

Bulan selalu hilang, not surprised.

2011-08-12T21:46:00.006+08:00

Berapa kerat je yang betul-betul anggap kau kawan. Berapa kerat je yang bila kau kata 'Jangan bagitau siapa-siapa', dia tak pergi kat orang lain lepas tu cakap benda yang sama. Berapa kerat je yang sanggup balas text message kau pukul 4.30pagi walaupun dia boleh pilih untuk balas lepas dia bangun tidur. Berapa kerat je yang ingat kat kau walaupun kau lupakan dia. Berapa kerat je yang sudi nak layan kau lagi lepas kau buat macam tu. Berapa kerat je yang percaya kat kau lagi lepas dah setahun lebih tak cakap. Berapa kerat je, kau bagitahu aku. So far, I've only met one. Only one.

Aku rasa dia je lah yang tau semua benda dari Form 1. Bila dia pergi, then I guess it's time for me to let go all of it. From the beginning till the end.

A friend of mine is moving to Putrajaya tomorrow. This morning was her last day in BSD2.

I cried.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bLuYIXa8FQ4&NR=1

(:

2011-08-07T11:56:00.003+08:00

Can you see it ? (':, originally uploaded by haytiezainuddin.

7th August, 2010.

Harini 7th August jugak. The only difference is that, it's not the same anymore.

Enlighten Me.

2011-08-05T00:47:00.009+08:00

I never really talk about this to anyone. Even to Kak Ira.

A year ago, I was busy preparing for PMR Trial, buku sejarah tak lepas dari tangan for a week :P Tanya kak ira, I spend my August break studying Sejarah F1 F2 F3. Even studied on Raya eve. As far as I remember, my Raya eve yang sebelum-sebelum ni di-spendkan dengan tolong ma buat rendang kat dapur. Tapi tahun 2010, lain. Even brought a model paper, a pencil, an eraser, ruler & even calculator to, everywhere I go/// As in bila pergi rumah sedara atau pun keluar jalan. But I hardly keluar jalan pun last year. You can only find me at home, Kasturi on Sat & Sun, school, or online. Last year mostly every night I online on MSN. And I think I spend like more than 100 bucks just for revision books. Ye lah, satu buku tebal tu pun dah 19/18bucks. I think I used to have 5 of them. Gave it to my cousin, Irfan. Baru revision books. Buku latihan belum termasuk lagi! Used to have 2 buku latihans for each subject. And one buku latihan is like 4 bucks .__. Bila fikir balik, baru aku realise macam tu la duit raya 2009 yang banyak-banyak tu lesap macam tu je. Tapi masa tu mana ada aku fikir pasal tu.. For me, its worth it lah kalau dapat straight As. Apart from studying every night for 3 months, spending ~~9 hours a day just to revise, habiskan duit raya 2009 for books, I also kinda like, stopped onlining. Not a big deal, but hey, it is when thats the only way for you to release your stress after studying for 9 hours a day. Even stopped watching TV D: Semua ni, sebab nak dapat straight As je. Sebab apa nak dapat straight As? Target masa tu, satu je, nak masuk KTK. Its pretty much disappointing when one of my classmate told me that "Ada satu B" And that B, kinda like ruin everything. Lagi disappointed bila most of my friend got the letter of offer to any SBP and I haven't. Then I realise that I won't get the letter punya lah. I screwed up everything, if only I just get over that thing and just use the last 36hours to study, not crying over something like that, I would've gotten a better result. I didn't receive any letter. Was really looking forward for a green-coloured envelope written KTK/STF on it, but didn't receive anything even after 2 weeks. I sure can always, always check online. I did. But oh well, it says "Maaf, permintaan tidak berjaya" Then theres a button kat bawah dia, "e-Rayuan" I refuse to click it cause by clicking on that maknanya dia akan random pick. Blablabla, after a few days, I decided to write a letter to kementerian. Though I kinda like, macam, fikir.. takkan la they wanna read a sixteen year old girl punya letter, membazir masa je. But anyway, I did wrote a letter. Managed to complete it. But I didn't post it to KTK nor KPM. So, dengan berat hati, I went online and clicked the "e-Rayuan" button. Tawakal je lah lepas tu.

...I didn't get it, of course. Kalau dapat, then I'd be in KTK la sekarang ni.

I don't know, what is it like to be in asrama. Mostly all of my friends hates it, I know I would too! But for the sake of my future, I'd stay till habis sekolah. Tak apa lah, dah tak ada chance nak masuk sekolah tu. Tak boleh buat apa-apa. All I can do right now is try my best to get the MARA/JPA punya scholarship//good result in SPM. Though I know that it is impossible for me to get A+ for Additional Math. I'll tryyyy.

Moving on, dad called Ikea earlier today to ask about our bed. The Ikea guy kata stock dah ada, means we'll be getting our bed before Raya! :D I didn't go to school today, kinda like-- overslept.

..to Chicago

2011-07-31T01:25:00.004+08:00

1. Bagan Lalang was funnnnnnnnnn. Tried paintball for the first time, jungle trekking -thou it's not much of a jungle, Bagan Lalang still ada banyak kelapa sawit. And guess what! Tak ada OBH :3 Should consider going for another camp next year. Hehhehe. I miss the beach :( Needless to say, I miss Bagan Lalang.

2. Got the jadual for August test last week. Physics, Add Maths & Sejarah on the same day. Siapaaaaaalah yang buat jadual tu. T_T Dah la it's on the last day! Lagi lah malas aku nak study.

3. Ehhhhh. Silap. Sebenarnya lah kan, aku boleh study. Tapi aku tak nak. Sebab tu aku kata aku malas. Sebenarnya, aku tak pernah malas, jangan percaya bila aku kata aku malas. Tu alasan je. Truth is, aku tak nak buat.

4. Dah lama sebenarnya aku tak cakap pasal benda yang tak sepatutnya dicakap-kan. Jadi........ sebenarnya, aku pun dah blank nak cakap pasal benda ni. So, tak apa lah. Yang penting, satu jer, it's coming to an end!

5. (Referring to this, bullet no. 1) Surat dah ada. Infact, I was about to post it to N9. But I didn't. I don't have the guts to do so considering that my result is not that good. I know that I'd regret not sending it..later. Still waiting for the letter to come///////pathetic -I know.

6. Got a copy of Reader's Digest for free. Read an article about something & someone earlier today.

...~~I cried~~.

Ag+

2011-07-17T18:59:00.006+08:00

Ingat lagi masa dulu-dulu masa tinggal kat Sentul, arwah atok selalu belikan banyak benda setiap kali datang rumah kitaorang all the way from Taman Melawati. Setiap kali datang mesti atok beli benda. I miss atok. Selama aku hidup ni, tak ada sorang pun yang pernah nak ajar aku macam mana nak swim. As in, like, betul-betul swim like yknw, float your body atas air.. Hehhh. Ye lah, sebelum ni mana ada nak pergi swimming. Fikir balik, I never really blog about myself kan? I mean like, about myself, bukannya macam post-post sebelum ni yang boleh kata semuanya hanyalah craps. So, where should I start?

kay, My name is Nur Hayatie. Currently 15 years & 9 months old. I was born in HB Kuala Lumpur on October 24th 1995. Just incase you're wondering why I am a bit too-putih-for-a-malay, well, my dad is Melayu & my mother is Chinese. So that makes me a "kacukan"! Tapi sekarang ni aku dah gelap sikit -__-

I'm not a good writer, but well, you're here & you're reading this, so that makes me a blogger! I'm a form 4 student. I'm a prefect at school since Form 1. To be exact, I'm currently BSD2's Prefectorial Board's "Setiausaha" & I'm not braggin' kay. It is true that I am the S.U :P Alah, jadi pengawas sejak F1 pun sebab saja nak try since masa kat sekolah kebangsaan dulu tak dapat jadi pengawas. Aku rasa, by far, that was my biggest mistake! ..For signing up to become BSD2's prefect. But thanks to them prefects, I learnt a few things that I shouldn't do -in life. Thou I don't really like what is happening to us right now. But things will get better eventually. I'm a student, still a student. I'm not much of "Pelajar Cemerlang" at school although I'm in the first class. Eh, I don't expect to be the best student, it's just that- I'm not as good as them Merantians since 08. Well, lets just say, I feel like I don't deserve to be in that class. I despise math. I despise Add Mathematics the most. In fact, I even thought of dropping Add Maths. But considering that I might be doing Geo Physics, sabar je la. I actually love Sejarah, seriously. I prefer Sejarah than Bio. I love puffy clouds. Hahaha that was.. so random. I love to eat, but it seems like my stomach is too small lah. Makan sikit dah kenyang. Agaknya sebabtu lah aku tak tinggi sangat. I'm a Facebook-er. I still do check my FB. I'm a Twitter-er (the hell?!) but I hardly tweet nowadays due to some reason. I love cameras, I love to take pictures, but yknw, I just hate the fact that I can't be in the picture if I am the photographer.. Guna self-timer, eh? //// Self-timer punya gambar comes out tak clear la!

In conclusion, I'm {a Muslim} , {a granddaughter}, {a daughter of two}, {a sister of one}, {a cousin of many}, {a friend of many}, {a good friend of 20} -rasanya lah!, {a girlfriend}, {a student}, {a prefect}, {a "setiausaha"}, {a math hater}, {a blogger}, {a FB user } ._. lame, but its a fact! , {a Twitter-er}, {a He Is We fan}, {a MySpace-er} eventhou MySpace dah macam hidup segan mati tak mahu, {a girl that prefers acoustic than screamo}, {a girl that promised herself not to make promises that she can't keep}, {a girl}. Basically, I am just another girl.

...kay, sambung balik cerita pasal Sentul..

Sentul besar, tak macam BSD. (I mean, not that Sentul is better, BSD is way better &...safer? than Sentul. Heh, sama je, ada jugak orang kurang siuman kat kawasan BSD ni) BSD lengkap, tapi jauh la dari KL. Tapi sekarang ni dah tak kesah dah pasal nak pergi beli barang kat KL. KL dah macam bukan KL. Penuh dengan foreigners. Bila aku pergi sana je aku rasa macam aku ada kat negara orang pulak! Tapi aku rindu Sentul sebenarnya, aku rasa dah 4 tahun aku tak pergi sana.

Ingat lagi masa kecik selalu pergi beraya kat Taman Melawati. Orang tak ada kampung, biasalah. Heh.. sebenarnya ada, tapi semua dah pindah ke KL. Aku rindu Kelantan. Aku rindu makan nasi dagang pukul 7 pagi. Hehe, just so you know, orang Kelantan memang macam tu, at least macam tu lah setakat ni aku tau. The very last time aku balik Kelantan was 3 1/2 years ago! Back when I was thirteen.

Sebenarnya, aku rindu semua orang, semua benda. Aku rindu zaman PMR. Kalau lah boleh aku rewindkan balik masa. Aku rindu semua orang yang pergi asrama. Aku rindu being loved and vice versa. Aku rindu semua. Aku rindu last year. Aku rindu Form 1. Aku rindu jadi budak kecik 5 tahun yang tak payah risau pasal apa-apa melainkan tiup lilin kat atas birthday cake. Aku rindu semalam. Aku rindu 2 hari lepas. Aku rindu semua benda yang tak ada depan mata sekarang ni.

Post ini ditulis dalam Bahasa Melayu + English, saya tau. Bagi sesetengah orang yang mengatakan blogging/expressing feelings on Twitter tu satu kerja yang lifeless, I suggest kau fikir balik dua tiga empat lima kali lah siapa yang lifeless.

Going for a camp! Peringkat Negeri @ Bagan Lalang, Sepang :) Might be taking my camera together with me. *prayingreallyhardtherewon'tbeanyOperasiBurungHantu*

I miss studying while listening to Late Nite Love Song w Nisha ):

2011-07-12T22:53:00.006+08:00

-Hari Sukan Sekolah dah habis, still haven't return the beret & tali wisel to teacher yet thou.

(the hell, how to spell wisel !@#$%^&* T_T)

-Homeworks banyak... (last 2 weeks punya). Aug test in less than 50 days :O Think so.

-Might be going for a camp next week, tapi qada' puasa belum habis. I think I'm emotionally, & physically ready for another camp. *praying very hard tak akan ada operasi burung hantu or whatever you call that*

-I enjoyed today's Kursus Kepimpinan.. but 9-6 is just, too long lah.

-Heard about it, all I can say is that, you should've expected this eversince day one. I'm not sure whether I should be on your side, or her side. Cause it's actually your fault jugak kan. Well, you deserve it! :D

-Heh, a year older? enjoy! (tinggal lagi 45mins je .__. ) Love you.

4/1231 It Happens.

2011-07-09T14:38:00.003+08:00

Trying my best, to hold on.

Reddddddddddd Crescent!

2011-07-08T23:19:00.007+08:00

Tau tak, rambut palsu tu, lama gila nak buat. Blergh. Cantik la jugak bila pakai :P

Now that Hari Sukan is over, means I can concentrate on my studies lah. Okay lah. Hopefully I can lah.

BSMM got 4th place. :')

Cepatlah sikit Jumaat. Cepatlah sikit august test. Cepatlah sikit cuti bulan August.

2011-07-06T20:44:00.000+08:00

Sinaran

2011-07-03T20:39:00.006+08:00

Pengetua baru datang esok, 4th July - Perempuan jugak.

Larian 1S 1M 1Malaysia on 2nd July- Heh, I just don't feel like running semalam. So, I didn't go to school :P

Hari sukan sekolah on 9th July - Perbarisan BSMM baru nak start practice esok, esok jugak laaaaa last episode BOF kat KBS.

MALAS def; (according to Kamus Dwibahasa OXFORD Fajar Ed. Ketiga)

adj. indolent; lazy (-ier,-iest);

unwilling to work oh yes.

Doing little work not really, I'm trying my best to complete my homeworks.

Showing lack of energy hmph, like I said, I tried my best,

I am working really hard to get a good result for Aug test, Final test, Feb test 2012, Mid-Term of 2012's exam, 2012's SPM Trial, and the most important one -SPM (duhhhhhh).

I got C+ for Chemistry. Which is 2 marks away from B, & 88 for Biology, which is 2 marks away from getting an A+. Anyhow, I thank You for everything. EVERYTHING :')

I really need a new photo for my report card.

I really have to start doing my delayed homeworks.

I really have to stop spending money for unnecessary stuff.

I really have to stop procrastinating.

I really have to try my best to focus in class. Especially during Additional Maths. & Physics. Chemistry too.

I really need my planner right now. Tu lah padah kemas bilik. Barang hilang. Tak sukaaaaa.

I really have to stop complaining. -about everything.

I really don't have time to think about unnecessary things.

Ramadhan in 29 days. Puasa belum ganti lagi. oooooooooooooo.

Serabut.

Then again, I got a new top & a necklace for myself today. Kurangla sikit stress. Just a bit.

Things, ahead.

2011-06-19T13:49:00.010+08:00

Heyyy, its 1:52PM here in Malaysia and I'm watching Pasta on Maaduu. Suppose to be watching it with my sister but she's still sleeping O.o Heh. We slept at 6 yesterday nite. Or should I say this morning.

I promised myself to study real hard for Final exam. But nahh, I don't seems to care about studying. I sometimes feel like giving up on everything, especially on my studies (yknw on all those Chemistry, Physics & AddMaths) but everytime I feel like doing that, I can't, considering that in (perhaps) 25 years time someone will argue with me about it. The thing about Chemistry, Physics & AddMaths is that, the questions that comes out in exam is not the same from what I've learnt. Rasanya kalau pergi tuition banyak-banyak pun, takda guna, sebab benda ni still susah, for me -atleast. Did I mention, I even cried cause I failed to answer a question from Functions? Blergh.

Maybe it's just me, maybe Add Maths is nt that hard once you gt it. But as for now, it is v. hard for me. Okay fine, I'd say, it is very challenging, not hard. Haaaha. (Sekarang susah lah, lagi 15 years sure aku menyesal tak cuba fahamkan Add Maths!) Speaking of future, I haven't even decide what, how and which course to take after SPM. Thought of doing aviation, but I'm a girl. Thought of doing Law, but grammar & vocabs hancur. Thought of becoming a geophysicist, tapiiiiiiiiiiiiiii ... hmm. Mimpi je lah. I swear I won't go for medic, busy sangat lah nanti. :| Whatever it is, I'm doing the best that I can to score more than 5As for SPM 2012.

It's quite impossible to get straight As, so, target untuk SPM 2012 : 5As/More than 5As :) Tak salah target 5As je, kalau dapat lebih, baguslah. Anyways, Happy Father's Day dearest Abah. I don't know what to get for you, nobody ever taught me what-to-get-for-your-father-on-Father's Day (since I myself bought my own present for my birthday ._. )

(This), is why I love Nat King Cole. Never fails to make me smile. Heeeheeee.

And (this) Hehehehe.

why, why, I just realised that it's been a year since 16th June 2010, the day I talked, ...chat with you for 7 - long - freaking - long - hours, literally did. Ah-ma-zing.

Laters,

2:35PM

3/1231 Who will [love you, fight, fall far behind]?

2011-06-17T00:30:00.005+08:00

For what that I've put myself into, I'm really looking forward for something good in return.

Anyways, I got 5As, 2Bs, & 2Cs for Mid Term Examination, its actually 4As and 1A-. But I'll just consider it as 5As :P Yes, I failed my add maths again :|

..the answer is you.

I once thought fate & destiny is the same thing

2011-05-31T01:44:00.007+08:00

Exam dah habis >:D

Tapi still kena buat Physics punya assignment. YES. YES. Terima kasih, Cikgu Physics. I love you lah for giving me(oh, us) project Physics untuk disiapkan dalam masa 2 minggu (yang sepatutnya merupakan masa untuk saya merehatkan diri sepenuhnya bagi menghadapi the remaining 5 months bagi sesi persekolahan tahun ni!) But then again, bukannya aku boleh pilih nak ke tak nak buat, 20 PEBEL marks tuuu, tak kan tak nak kannn? So, nak ke taknak, aku kena buat jugak. Sat naaa, membebel kejap. Tak puas hati betul.

This is Zuhayra/Lola.

And this is Lola's sister, Izzah! I'm quite sure I've mentioned about Izzah once. Banyak sebenarnya, but since I drafted most of my old posts, so.. tak banyak dah sekarang.

And thats my sister, Hajar. Oh, fyi, Lola and Izzah is not my sister, they're just my .. ex-neighbour.

And yes, that's mine. Yes, there's no E. But it's actually a present for *godknowswhy* from my aunt/uncle.

This is just so sad. Everytime I try to write something, I just can't. I'd ended up uploading few pictures from my camera to.. here. D:

Thursdays, Inns Street.

2011-05-18T23:02:00.002+08:00

*Oh hello Rock ;) Imma steal you away from Lumina*

Oh yeah, I've been playing this game since 2007 O.o Bila nak habis?... entahlah. Anyways, Modern Maths starts in approximately 8/9 hours. Daaang.

Light Years Away

2011-05-08T22:46:00.010+08:00

*tadaaaa*

Tak salah perasan sekali sekala :P

"One is a lonely number"

"Chill lah, two is not kannnnn"

Dearest mama, thanks for being here with me, for me, through thick and thin (though I don't really share with you stories about my life like Kak Ira did/still do). Happy Mother's Day, momma. Eeek, can someone explain to me why should I specify a day to show my mother how much I love her?, anyone?

I haven't get anything for my bestfriend yet. In fact, I wished her at 8pm! Don't get me wrong, I was about to wish her at 12am, tapiiiii, macam tak special, so I ACTUALLY want to wish her at 11.59PM. But since after that she sent me a msg on my FB chat saying "You haven't wish me yet :( ' so yeah. That explains why I wished her at 8. It's been like.. err 2 weeks. Thing is, I don't know what to get for her. Hahaha. Why am I talking about this. . since you'd read this (okay maybe you won't) eek. lame la.

Anyways, we, Merantians performed well last Friday. 20 marks for PEBEL :'D Yaaay! Goodluck for mid-term exam eveghyone. I kinda got sick of revising. Don't feel like revising anymore. I give up :| *sigh* But heck, I'll try my best.

I still remember clearly what Landon told Jamie. Clearly, mind you.

2011-05-01T00:49:00.008+08:00

"Stage 4 - Comfortable"

A sixteen minutes video that ..probably explains mostly everything. Watch it!

No classes on Monday! Blast and double blast! (tiru cara Lord Septic, hehe)

Anyways, Happy 1st of May lovelies! I still remember clearly what happened on May 1st last year. (':

There's nothing special on 1st of May actually. Just wanna wish you guys, happy 1st of May. Hehe. Another thing, I know, i know, the moustache is so weird kannn. Err... I mean my new header. :P Ignore it please, someone told me to put it. Haha.

2/1231

2011-04-22T22:55:00.005+08:00

It has been confirmed that Mid-Term examination is on May 12th, 6 days after persaraan, 8 paragraphs of choral speaking to be memorised, approximately 19days left, 3 stressing week of exam. Heck.

1/1231

2011-04-16T15:11:00.005+08:00

Nothing beats the smell of Staaaaarbcks coffee + the smell of new books ...

Love it.

Phobia, I supposed.

2011-03-27T00:48:00.005+08:00

Considering the fact that staying doesn't make much of a difference as leaving, I think I should send the letter to the school. Going to try for the very last time, or maybe second last time. This time nak tulis surat yang betul betul formal, make sure takda grammar error/kesalahan tatabahasa. Blergh, I just hate writing formal letters. I'll give an exception for ..just this one, this one time.

Got MYR40 from school/PIBG for 'Pencapaian PMR Terbaik : 7A 1B' (or something like that) But anyway, I got back from school, hid the money somewhere in my drawer so that I won't spend the money for something else. Nahh, I won't touch it dah. Sooner or later I'll forget about it.. :D I'll spend the money, but not now!

Ma asked me again about JB's concert, (she don't really know who's JB though :P ) Well, she told me to get the ticket, yeap, I might be going to JB's on 21st April. No kidding. But I don't feel like going though. I'm not really a big fan of JB so I think its not worth it. Heh, I'll just use the MYR188 for a new bag & a new shoes instead of spending it for JB. :P

Yknw what, I just realised that, what I did last few months was wrong. I should've done that. The only thing I should do right now is pray to Allah, and I should've done that right after it happened. I mean like, to diss someone publicly is just wrong. What I did was wrong. I realised that, I am just another bitch, a hypocrite & useless & ugly bitch. Problems are meant to be solved by the person who's facing it, itself. Not to be shared with people on Twitter/FB.

At that very moment, as soon as I realised that, I reminded myself, not to repeat this again.

I never tried solving the problem that I was facing that time. All I ever did was, tweet about it.. tweet about it & tweet more about it. In the end, dia menang & she got everything.

Funny how some people just love someone so that that someone will love him/her back. Then leaves them after they fell in love in him/her. Get it?? They just want to hurt you, thats all.

What I'm trying to say is that, I just, I don't/won't trust people easily anymore because everytime I put my trust o someone, no matter who is he/she -friends, cousins, bestfriends, bestbestfriends, -they would eventually tell someone else. I'm afraid it would happen again. So, as for now, I just, I don't feel like telling/confessing/sharing my stories/feelings/thoughts to anyone.

2011-03-17T14:07:00.002+08:00

The captions for mostly all of my pictures on Flickr is so depressing.

The posts that I reblogged on Tumblr is so depressing.

Even my blog posts is very very depressing.

the shouting turns to tears

2011-03-12T18:16:00.010+08:00

I just got back from school & was still wearing my baju kurung. (belum mandi lagi! -thaaat explains why my hair is a bit messy. :P ) Took some pictures with Izzah & Lola. Can't believe it, Izzah is 4years old already. Well, not exactly, she's turning 4 this September. It feels like it was just yesterday I saw her for the first time after she got back from the hospital. Whoahh.

Exam just ended, I got my result. As mentioned in previous post, I failed my addmaths. Got C for Chemistry, B for Maths & Physics, A for PJ. Geesh.

16th March 2011/12.28AM - Wednesday.

I've been going out a lot lately, went to The Mall, McD, The Curve, KL.
So, I might be going out tomorrow. Though I don't feel like it..
CleverBot is not that clever, yknw? Go & chat with the 'machine' for a few hours and you'll get it.
So, my eyebags are gone... cause I cried myself to sleep.weird.. I know.
Oh.. bukan ke Mark Z. kata he wants to shut down FB this month?
I like the Kooks. :)
And A Day To Remember too! :D
Anis, you were right. Plan nak pergi Genting Highland tu tak jadi :| Takpa! JUNEE!!
i don't want this to happen again and again and again anymore.
At times I just feel like giving you a bitch slap, k? You do know that I don't like her kan. . . Nahh, I don't think so I can trust you anymore.
SIAPA TAU MANA NAK CARIK ALL 16 EPISODES OF MY GIRLFRIEND IS A GUMIHO?! :(
I feel like I'm the only one who's still blogging right now :(((( O.O (among my friends ofcourse)

The force of attraction has loosen up, I'm on my own (:

like a liar looking for forgiveness

2011-03-09T21:13:00.007+08:00

Mungkin betul yang saya memang tak layak masuk kelas pertama. Mungkin dari mula lagi saya tak patut setuju dengan bekas guru kelas saya. Mungkin betul sampai situ saja kemampuan saya, dan otak saya untuk berfungsi. Mungkin sebab badan saya saiz kecik, tu yang otak pun senang sangat nak capai tahap maximum.

Apa yang saya cuba sampaikan dalam perenggan pertama tadi ialah, saya tak lulus kertas pertama subjek matematik tambahan. Padahal yang keluarnya Bab 1 je. Tapi entah la kenapa, susah sangat nak dapat full marks, or at least lulus. Nahh, saya takda lah sedih sangat. Tapi the fact that my classmates got A in most of the subjects & I didn't, that makes me feel like I'm just another useless kid. Padahal belajar benda sama, in the same class, taught by the same teachers. Logic kan?, apa yang saya cakap tu?

Sebenarnya kalau tunggu MRSM/SBP hantar surat ni lagi menyeksakan daripada tunggu result PMR. (Ye, I am still waiting for the letter to come) agak mustahil untuk surat tu untuk sampai. Untuk second intake ni saya takda lah nak mengharap sangat kat diorang. Mungkin dah takdir saya tak dapat. Mungkin memang saya kena habiskan zaman persekolahan saya kat sekolah ni. Ya Tuhan, menyampah la pulak berdepan dengan sekolah ni.

I've been getting a lot of 'Hayatie sombong', 'Hayatie lupa kawan' etc etc lately. Ye, mungkin saya tertakpeduli kan siapa-siapa. Sorry lah. Tak kan la semua orang kat sekolah pun saya nak tegur setiap kali bertemu muka? Err, pasal sombong tu pulak, teringat pulak pernah sekali adalah manusia yang saya tak kenal ni tegur saya kat sekolah. Dah saya tak kenal, kenapa nak cakap dengan awak pulak? Macam-macam lah manusia ni.

Dan minta maaf juga kalau saya tersinggungkan perasaan seseorang. Saya ni, bukannya sempurna sangat pun. Hanya seorang manusia yang biasa, macam orang lain..

Bila fikir balik kannnn, takda banyak sangat pun sweet memories happened between us. Only twice, or maybe 3 times, once on Feb 12th, another one on err I forgot, anddd the last one was on Aug 8th last year. It's all bitter. sadly, yes. If I were to list everything that I shared between us, bagi masa satu bulan pun belum tentu dapat habis menulis cherita dia. Tapi kalau nak suruh tulis sweet memories, fikir lah sampai tukar pen 3-4kali sebab dakwat dah kering pun baru dapat tulis 2-3 je. Jangan terasa kay - tapi kan, I don't get some of you. You guys kept asking me whether I'm okay or not, & ignore me, & talk to her, & go to her when I'm actually right beside you, but then you expect me to forget about it? The best part is, kau tau pulak aku tak suka, tapi still buat. Jeesh. Kau anggap aku tak muncul kan. Ingat aku tak tahu fikir ke?

So don't blame me for not talking to you kay, you started it first.

Malas sebenarnya nak layan kerenah manusia ni. Tapi apa nak buat, hidup dalam dunia ni kena banyak bersabar. Bukannya saya nak kata saya benci semua orang. Tapi, kadang-kadang diorang ni pelik sangat. Saya pun kadang-kadang tak tahan, boleh la pulak mengalir air mata jernih. Nak kata stress, ada la jugak. Frankly speaking, stress ni sebenarnya mental block je. Orang selalu fikir negatif banyak sangat. Jadi, apa yang saya sedang menghadapi ni bukanlah stress, cuma, perasaan yang... hmph, susah nak describe lah. Siapa yang faham tu, bagus lah. Apa-apa pun, terpaksalah saya berdepan dengan orang yang saya taknak jumpa. Bukannya saya boleh ubah apa-apa pun. Dah orang tu macam tu, biarlah dia hidup macam tu. Yang penting, dia tak kacau saya lagi sekali. Kalau lah dia nak sibuk-sibuk kacau saya lagi, haaaaaa.. tu yang buat orang marah tu. Don't get me wrong, saya bukannya berdoa nak dia lesap dalam hidup saya. Just that, the fact that I'm losing another friend,- or should I say - a few bestfriends because of this someone, is just too sad. You're not the same anymore, do you realise that? ): don't you get it, I just lost a friend because of some girl.

As for you, thank you, for being here with me, for me. through thick & thin. you've been there for me eversince day one, and the best thing is that.. you NEVER get sick of listening to all my craps every single day/week/months. I love you.

Broken Dreams

2011-02-23T23:17:00.005+08:00

Kak Ira told me I'm being very.. very sensitive these past few months. Sensitive as in I could just breakdown easily. In a way, I do agree with her. Haha.

Haven't study for next week's test yet but I think I can make it if I just stop wasting my time for something unimportant.
I haven't receive any letter from the SBP people yet, so I guess I'll be staying here, in this school till form 5 then.
Thought of applying for Sekolah Teknik. But nahh, some of the subjects are different from here and I think I should just stick to the subjects that I'm learning rn.
I sometimes feel like quitting science stream and just move to Saga.
But on a second thought, I don't like Saga. . . and I think I should stay in my current class.
Anybody realise that it's been 2 months since 23rd Dec? hehe. haha. hihi. ._.
shittt nj.. kaki cramp. kay. bye.

OH bytheway,

Happy Birthday Wani :D

2011-02-18T22:39:00.002+08:00

YOU CHANGED, BESTFRIEND. ...YOU CHANGED,

YOU FCKING CHANGED.

I don't want/mean to judge, but heck, goddamnit, you CHANGED.